| got my eyebrows done today...so freaking painful...worse than getting a tattoo (AND I KNOW HOW THEY BOTH FEEL) gaaa...hate it...but much needed
spent all my time wit summer today and did nothing cept watch soaps...its been a while since i have had a day like this =)
wish u were here
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| Do you hear me
I'm talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my and baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I wait for you, I promise you I will
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning around
You hold me right here right now
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh |
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| i'm leaving tmr at 3 in the afternoon. i realize that coming back to hong kong just bought family so much closer back to my heart. there's no doubt that before coming on this trip family was always number one in my heart, but i think after this trip i realize that family has also become my drive in life. i'm a detached person, as mentioned in my previous entries i like it that way, might just be my personaility. i'm not saying i'm don't care about my friends, of course i do, i just also like my personal space. but i honestly realize that family and my faith is the only thing i would without a doubt give up this personal space of mine.
i really don't want to leave =(. i want to wake up everyday early in the morning to the birds living outside our apartment. brush my teeth and walk into the living room to saying jo sun to my grandma. she would have already made tea for me to drink and she would have turned on the hot water boiler for me half an hour before so i can take a shower right away. we would than leave the apartment, and i would carry her bag with her jacket (she gets cold easily). i would hold hands with her and walk to the bus stop, we would walk super slow but we would have a nice talk. she would always end up telling me about her life, and sometimes i feel anger because someone in the past has hurt her, and sometimes i feel sad because i see so much pain in her eyes. but i always see a woman i respect and a woman who has given her life to her kids and grandchildren. when her legs hurt she gets sad, because she went throug so much hardships because she decided not to take the easy way out and took the responsible way when she was young. we would go eat dim sum, and she would always order too much because she's scared i would get hungry later. she would drink tea and eat literally one small plate of food. she would spend the rest of her time watching me eat with a smile on her face. when i tell her i can't eat no more, she shoves another dumpling into my bowl. that to me is the prefect start to every single day.
my grandma is the strongest woman i have ever known. she single handedly supported my dad and my aunt to study in canada, in her times that is unheard of. she has worked so hard in her life, and she hasn't kept any of the reward. she gives the best to us. she has taken betrayals, cheating, beatings, everything i can possiblity think of , and yet she is still standing. she has respect from all her kids and all her grandkids, not through force but purely by how much she has saved all our asses each time we screwed up. she still has to take shyt on a daily basis, not because she can't support herself but because for the bigger picture for her kids. i realize coming back to hk that my grandma and my family is honestly my drive to do well, because i want to give them everything they deserve.
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| today was so hot and humid in hk.....i was just happy to find AC in the malls. I finally found the earphones i wanted =D. I fooled around with my godparents the whole day. My godfather is sooooooooo good at tricking me. He told me that there was something on the cieling and i looked up and he "play" slapped me -_-. And he kept doing it -_- And than he went crazy and we started to pretend to thai box hahahahaha. I am so gonna miss them =( |
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| i wonder how much will i need to give up in order to reach my dreams. i wonder if ensuring that i have the as little as possible emotional ties other than family will make that decision leaving easier. i wonder if i will even make it that far. |
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